100 thoughts on “Badflower – Ghost

  1. People think suicide is something to make god damn jokes about….

    …DO YOU SEE ME LAUGHING?!? DO MY SCARS NOT LOOK GOOD ENOUGH TO YOU?!?! WHAT, DO YOU WANT ME TO CUT DEEPER???? YOU TRY SPENDING FUCKING 7 YEARS OF YOUR LIFE CUTTING ONLY PAPER THIN AWAY FROM AN ARTERY….

  2. Lost my brother to suicide in 2003. This song really hits home. Check on your friends and family if they seem down or a little off.

  3. Might as well share my story also,
    Grown up with a druggie mom and brother, no dad in the picture.
    5 years old life is great my mom is clean, and got married to a really nice guy – At this age i smoked weed.
    7 Years old they get a divorce and me and my mom move with my grandpa. Grandma died in 2004. At this age, I smoked Cigarettes. First time I put a knife to my throat – A lot of things occurred I don't want to put out there.
    10 Years, My brother beat me, and really killed my self confidence and was bullied in school. I start skipping at this age missing 30 – 40 days a year. My mom pops pills at this time.
    12 Years, During this span I was in a car and got hijacked while my mom was inside her boyfriends house she left the keys in the car and they pulled me out and sat me on the curb and punched me. I got in a lot of fights and bullying was the worse at this age during 5th grade. I made a lot of new friends though. During the summer my mom is in the worse shape she dies in July 2011.
    14 Years, I move with a aunt, I felt very out of place. I fail every class and at this point from all the school I missed I have no hope in education. My grade was actually I. I for incomplete. Or other people said I for idiot. I was ghetto at this school and felt left out. I was never selected for sports.
    16 years, I reach a breaking point. I am at my lowest. I call out to god for a dog and the next day there was a stray in my backyard. I still have him today. I start smoking again, at this point my brother lives with me and my grandpa, he does heroine and steals, and have been put in bad situations
    17 years I move back to my grandpas after being so awkwardly with my aunt. I get online schooled and almost failed out of that. My brother steals everything of value from the house, I sleep with a knife at this point because I have got death threats from him. Eventually we kicked him out. And he goes to jail and spends a month there.
    20 Years I graduate a year late. its just me and my grandpa. I am depressed and lonely as ever, I listen to depressing songs. I would never take a blade to my self, but if it was my choice if I have no more dogs currently they are keeping me here and my grandpa, i'd go out by hanging, I have no family left and am still searching for a purpose. I just needed to vent my life story.
    ——————————————————————————————————-
    I've made it this far, who knows what'll happen next.

  4. One day I lost everything. And I never got everything back. And I'm still struggling. But now everything is calmer. And I never thought a day before that today would be better. Even though I've lost almost everyone too

  5. I live in San Francisco where throughout the decades thousands of people have attempted to end their lives by jumping off the iconic Golden Gate Bridge. Sadly, most of them succeeded in their goal. However, among the small number of those jumpers who did somehow survive, all of them have testified that as soon as their feet had left the bridge and they started to fall, they immediately experienced profound regret about the decision they had made to end their lives. Please keep this in mind if you ever find yourself contemplating doing something of this nature.

  6. It may feel like no one is looking but also be careful what you wish for as well I went through both no one looked up and then finally many women did then they fucked me over

  7. This song always makes me cry no one gave me love but then one day many looked up and fucked me over in the head and financially

  8. sometimes the end is all a person needs anymore, our world is too broken. For a scorned lover I see no reason for this but for deep depression like a void within your soul that nothing can fill, Some just can not find any other way out.

  9. This song is alot of heart reminds me of my wife that left her family before her time loved alot n not forgotten r.i.p.

  10. Songs about cutting himself as video shows carbon monoxide suicide. Makes about as much sense as suicide itself. Great song tho.

  11. The things that have happened in my life so so much tragedy. I understand life is life and tragic events happen every day. For me it's a struggle mentally, physically and emotionally. This song is one I could of wrote for myself and one my soulmate could have wrote before his last and final attempt that landed him on the other side where he was called to. I pray I get the final calling myself. Love this song!

  12. I cry almost everytime I listen go this song. The first time I heard it, I asked how someone could so perfectly sum up how I felt about everything. It hit me like a ton of bricks and it will always be the song I relate to the most. Some of these comments and the feelings the hold are the reason why I refuse to try again. I still want to, but I know I'll regret it if I succeed and wouldn't want to put my loved ones through that. But fuck if I don't feel this in my soul everytime. And now I'm crying at work lol.

  13. suicide,……………if it works….transforms u to the next existence…………suicide doesn't always work………….trust me I know this well…………..god has kept me n keeps alive………for some reason…………..n which I don't know

  14. The primary source of suicide comes from hopelessness, hopelessness comes from the society.

    One should always keep in mind that Society operates under the law of nature. If your life is bad force it to be better through any means you have to.

    Survival of the fittest, not the "morally correct".

  15. I was ready to give up life was too much alone and depressed but then I stopped caring what others thought and found myself…now I have a family of my own and life is falling in place…good or bad living your life is better than trying to live like others.

  16. The sprit of heaviness is a living hell. It's sad how doctors and pharmaceuticals company can make billions of dollars for a lie. It's called the spirit of heaviness do you want me to quote exactly what the scripture says.

  17. Every part of the song, the lyrics in different sections and everything…I just can't tell anyone how much I can relate to all this…

  18. I started being suicidal at the age of 14 I started to slit my wrists with anything I could find. Kept a lot of anger inside and when I cut it helped me release anger. I actually stopped for a long time and just relapsed a few months back do to bad depression. This song literally is me 100%

  19. I went through benzo and antidepressant withdrawal and all I could think about was suicide. Every second of the day… I'm glad I never caved in. I toughed it out. I'm not the same tho.

  20. https://youtu.be/BMz4SyTBi4k

    Here's a song i wrote to get me through hard times… No I'm not depressed, but when i am it motivates me to write music. When I'm happy i can't or dont want to write music…go figure!

  21. Me and my girlfriend have brought each other back a few times in the 3 yrs we've been together.

    She purposely didn't get my attention when she needed her inhaler one night. And I had a bottle of pills in my hand after we broke up(We're back together) and as I was saying goodbye to her from another room she ran out and knocked the bottle out of my hand. She called my mother and that really helped.

    2.14.17 and still going strong. I love you HannahBanana!

  22. This song made home for me. I slit my wrists and did not die. I believe in your words. Keep up the positive persona. I always turn it up when I see your name. I would love to meet you all and hear your stories. Big fan here. Educated, loving, and not gonna die yet.

  23. [Verse 1]
    I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
    I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
    And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
    But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
    I tried it once before and I think I might've messed up
    I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
    But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die
    But nothing very special ever happens in my life

    [Chorus]
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be

    [Verse 2]
    I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
    I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
    And I should've told my mother, "Mom, I love you," like a good son
    But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

    [Chorus]
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

    [Bridge]
    I tried it once again and I think I might black out
    I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about
    My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
    The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked

    [Chorus]
    Yeah, take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be
    I tried it once again and I think I went too far
    (The man that I was meant to be)
    I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
    (The man that I was meant to be)
    I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son
    This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

  24. Depression has increased. Why? Secular liberalism removes the community…the connections between others. It's taken me a couple of decades to morph from liberalism into truly understanding how damaging and empty it makes life. Truly.

  25. I'll live my life every day until I'm gone, I'm not suicidal but I don't want to be here anymore, I wish I could explain this to people, especially the pricks that I have to work for that think they can change my schedule in a whim and I am just supposed to drop everything.

  26. Going through a divorce of 13 years and my wife took my 2 girls. Asking for insurmountable amounts of childsupport and refusing to let me see my kids that want to live with me.

  27. You wanna know what I hate most

    People who use depression and anxiety for attention. A lot of depressed people don’t won’t to burden anyone with their depression

  28. Suicide only leads to suffering. In this life and the next..I've heard testimonies of ppl who came back and described a dark empty place with no hope.. plz ppl, suicide is not the answer

  29. I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
    I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
    And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
    But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up

    I tried it once before and I think I might've messed up
    I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
    But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die
    But nothing very special ever happens in my life

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be

    I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
    I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
    And I should've told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son
    But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

    I tried it once again and I think I might black out
    I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about
    My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
    The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be

    I tried it once again and I think I went too far
    The man that I was meant to be
    I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
    The man that I was meant to be
    I could've told my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son
    This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

  30. I have attempted suicide more times then can remember since age 12. Everytime I looked up no one ever gave a fuck. Being tortured with deadly weapons twice in one year at age 12. But you know the truth jesus and his most powerful members of his glorious army came everytime and stopped me. Cause you are loved we are love by a love more powerful than anyone's it is the fathers love to his children for he hears us weep and cry and he knows he has always know. Please everyone in a position to kill yourself. Know he loves more and better than anyone could ever. Praise jesus and the father he does care.

  31. This Song, HITS ME SO HARD!! And This Song, Is SO TRUE. I Love This Song! But, I Hate It At The Same Time. Keep Up The Good Songs. I Had A Battle Buddy, In The Army. That Got Sent Over For The Iraq / Gulf War. When I Got Called Back, For The Tour Of The USA. ( He Got Called Over, In 1990. 1st Infantry Division. And I Happened To Get Called Back, In January Of 1991. )   We Tried Keeping In Touch. And After He Was Discharged, From The Gulf War. He Was "NEVER" The Same. I Haven't Heard From Him, For A Long Time. Until One Day 🙁 I Happened To Get A Response, From One Of His Family Members. Except, For One Thing. The Family,  Did Get A Hand Written Letter. He Could Not Take The Pain Anymore. Nobody Was Their, For Him. That Could See Through His Eyes. "ALL", The Destruction & Killing. He Just Hated Seeing It Every Night, While Trying To Fall Asleep.  And At The Beginning, Of November. He Slit, The Back Of Both Wrists. All The Way Through The Veins, To The Bones. There Was No Way, To Save Him. 🙁  If That Was Me? Where Would I Have Been? Maybe, In The Same Place? Please PRAY, For ALL The Military, And ALL The First Responders.  "MAKE IT BACK HOME SAFE"!! And When They Do Make It Back Home Safe. "PLEASE, FOR GODS SAKE". Help Them Out, In Any Way Possible. Even If They Don't Seem To Want It.  "God Bless You All".  This Is My Story, Of Why I LOVE & Hate This Song. I Still Love This Song. Just Brings Back Memories. 🙁

  32. I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
    I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
    And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
    But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
    I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
    I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
    But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
    But nothing very special ever happens in my life
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be
    I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
    I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
    And I should have told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son
    But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
    I tried it once again and I think I might black out
    I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
    My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
    The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
    I tried it once again and I think I went too far
    I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
    I couldn't tell my mother 'mom, I love you', I'm a bad son
    This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

  33. Wow, what a great song. Deep and hits where it should, and sadly really personal for me. These guys. I am starting to absolutely love this band.

  34. lol this is my life story spot on except just never had anyone ever just alone and sad and just don't give a fuck i am too tired

  35. The 8k + that dislike this song must have an amazeing life. The rest of us this song hits that depression in the face and how we feel this exact way.

  36. this hits home so hard, i fucking cried when i heard this.
    this song reminds me of my past. but it empowers me to fight each day.
    if anyone is reading this are feeling like hurting themselves, TRUST ME, it does get better.

  37. I think the person in the picture he looks at in the car is my mother. He looks like someone I used to know
    My name is Jen 💫

  38. My mom hung herself when I was 5. My grandpa killed himself with carbon monoxide. I myself have experienced self harm and suicidal thoughts. This song touched my soul

  39. Oh my god I just found this in my feed I can so relate I tried but fate had other plans.. Thank God I'm a new person a man of God.. Prayers of love and hope for all.

  40. Not the video I was expecting but it didn't disappoint. Brilliant song and amazing band. If anybody is struggling please just hold on. From a random dude on the internet, I promise you every single one of you matter and that I love you all. Take care of each other, life gets hard

  41. I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
    I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
    And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
    But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up

    I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
    I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
    But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
    But nothing very special ever happens in my life

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be

    I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
    I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
    And I should have told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son
    But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

    I tried it once again and I think I might black out
    I should have left a letter but I had nothing to write about
    My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
    The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked

    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah

    I tried it once again and I think I went too far
    I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
    I couldn't tell my mother 'mom, I love you', I'm a bad son
    This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

  42. This song is such a meaningful song to me. It's just not very common to hear something like this from a mans perspective.
    I started self harming when I was 14. One of my friends in middle school did it because she was sad. I tried it once, scratching my arm with a mechanical pencil. That's all it took to completely ruin my mental health for the next decade of my life. I'm now almost 25 and still get urges to cut myself almost every day. I haven't done it for around 3 or 4 years now but it hasn't ever gotten any easier to avoid thinking or wanting to do it when something stressful comes up.
    Please, if you're listening to this video, please don't start self harming. There's nothing romantic or deep about it. It's not a good coping mechanism. It's a horrible mental illness and, if you do get to a point where you don't want to die anymore, you won't want to live with the permanent change to your mental state that comes from self harming as a coping mechanism.

    Talk to someone who loves you. Get help. Get counseling. Sort your emotions and mental health out in any way but self harm. It's not worth it.

  43. Dude sounds like a chic , I’m sorry but he does . The way the lyrics are set up in beats suck it’s set of 14 syllables , set of 14 syllables , ect I guess they didn’t take the time as a band to put a great song together I do not like this band at all

  44. Weird how depression can be so overwhelming. Like a chain around ones throat anytime try to break free from the depression its like it yanks you back harder then before each time. So many scars on my arms from the pain i feel in my mind. This song resonates how i feel on a daily basis. The urge to die grows and grows. Yet when i have my trusty blade i feel like self preservation is kicking in to where i cant or its just the loser in me that cant do anything right.
    Afterawhile there isnt a spot i can cut without tearing into an old scar. People treat me like a freak. Judge me even before they know me. Its like why is this world like that? Why couldnt i even find a friend or even someone who would actually care. I can take aby physical pain thats never been an issue. The depression is the worst pain ive ever even been in. Seems like a disease as time goes on it gets worse. Like when im driving home from work i speed up at times and just like try and get the guts to ram my car into a tree. Yet when i chicken out or puss out i get more depressed instead of happy that i didnt want to die at that spilt second. Just ranting but this song helps me in a way because i know i cant be the only one out there going through this. Yet so hard to even ask for help when its an embarrassment to say i cant be around a blade or anything sharp without getting the urge to cut and cut until i cant feel any physical pain or to where i cant feel anything at all. I just become numb in sense and just wish i could finally end it all and stop pussing out

  45. "I shouldve told my mother i love her like a good son hut this lufe is overwhelming and im ready for the next one" was deep i can relate

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